the lies in fairytales

2011-12-17T14:44:00.001+08:00

我。。。爱上了一个不该爱上的人。

害怕。。。

2011-08-14T09:12:00.002+08:00

说真的，我从来不曾想过自己会有害怕爱上你的一天。我知道我们根本不可能，为什么我还会有这种感觉？

可能是因为，你总是在我想起你，在我需要你的时候出现，莫名的缘分，让我渐渐习惯上了你的存在，我很害怕，害怕有一天，我又会遍体鳞伤，又会像以前一样，对周遭的人事物冷冷淡淡。我害怕，害怕以前的感觉会再次出现，以前的事情会再以此的重蹈复摺。

明明知道不可能，却还是执着，这像我的性格吗？我不知道了。。。明明知道你的心里有着别人，却还是莫名的陷入进去。。。

让一切结束吧。。。我已经累了。。不想再向任何的问题。。。用读书来麻醉？希望吧。。

MY NIGHTMARE

2011-06-16T22:49:00.004+08:00

HEYLO PEEPS! HAHA!

This blog doesnt have much people knowing! ^^

So, this holiday, I've been thinking about alot. of things of course. I suddenly miss him. Idk why. Just miss. I didnt tell anyone about it, except rebecca. :( He's been a nightmare to me, but memories from him are... rather sweet. I know it's dumb to say that but yah. idk why. I'm trying my best, very best. To get over him this holiday. Hope I'll be able to do it when school reopen. He's the first one. Very first. I'll make him, my sweetest and scariest nightmare. I'll forget him. I WILL. Sorry for complaining so much. HAHA. But this blog doesnt have much visitors you see. HAHA

BUAI!~

Happenings!~

2011-04-03T20:22:00.002+08:00

Too much things happen recently,

My mind doesnt seems to disgest anything!~ Suddenly, everthing seems to change. This blog is just here, and i think no ones ever know this blog's existence.

Friendship problems, this is killing me. I dunno what i can do to salvage any more things. Being close to one and getting to neglect another one isnt what i intended to do and also not something i wan. I never wanted to break anymore friendships because of my post. This post, sometimes is just plain irritating. I want to giveup. But time, made me used to being busy over it and getting alot of feelings from it.

Studies, I dunno what i can do. I plan everything, but i have to succeed. Getting in Law and Management, i know isnt gonna be easy by DPA. I have to super duper hard for my English to get at least a freaking B4 for it.

Only when i get older, then i will realised that not everything will go smoothly. Just like what you plan. There are alot of "if" in this realistic world. I've been thinking. What "if" i can't DPA successfully in Law and Management? Will i pursue my dreams for psychology or will i work super duper hard again to try get in Law and Management or will i even give up on this two and choose another elective? I hate myself from being thinking too much. But i really can't help it. I'm scared. I'm scared what if my results were not good as my expectation. What if i go into poly and be too busy to even care about my friends? In life, there's too much possible things for everything. And i'm kindda getting tired to it.

在爱情里太笨

是不是我天真

爱情的那些课程

我还没修完学分 <3

Nothing goes right

2010-12-23T20:17:00.003+08:00

HELLO ~ HAHA! Im in a super duper bad mood today ! I shouted at almost everyone who talk to me suring the sec one orientation! Mr Lian shot me arrow after he's being shot in meeting. -.- School's reopening, Christmas eve is tmr, Christmas is just 2days away. Everything seems to fly past so fast this year. I suddenly remember my changes in this year. First half of the year, Im cold. Towards every and anyone. Because of that thing. It happened and i've never imagine the pain before. I've never been hurt so deeply by someone before. And i changed. But today, Im back. To that hyper little girl. That's muddled-headed. I've been thinking, Is it better to be cold, Or hyper and cheerful? I understand the feeling of giving up today. I think of the past memories i had with him. It doesnt hurts me anymore. That's the feeling of giving up. I think. At least those memories we had before. I could let it keep in my heart. Its the first one. So, It wouldn't be forgotten easily. Its just a few more days to 2011. In 2010, I've learn alot. I learn to be stronger. I learn that I couldnt depend on anyone else but myself. I've been relying on him too much. That's why when he's gone. It hurts alot. Things changes too much this year. It's HOLIDAY ! But i'm getting busy each and everyday. The feeling is just so stress. 把习惯改掉，也是我放弃对你的感觉的一个办法。

My holidays!~

2010-12-20T19:26:00.003+08:00

HEYYYY !

HAHA !

I had my secondary one orientation rehearsal today !

Its sucks !

I've been like so irritated by people early in the morning !

People who didnt like answer my calls ?

AND THEY WERE LATE.

So, went home after rehearsal.

Daddy bought me lunch. MUAHAHA. YUMMMM.

I read storybook till I fell asleep.

AND I'VE SLEEP FOR LIKE 2 HOURS !

HAHA.

I sleep quite late last night

And woke up like 6+?

HAHA

I will go crazy by this rate.

LOVE 50% last night was nice !

Apple bouquet. HAHA.

So romantic.

He's allergic to APPLES!

Weirddddddd

I'll try posting everyday.

Due to REBECCA TEN's wish!

This week is so slackish!

Tuesday, slacking at home

Wednesday, CCA?

Thursday, rehearsal AGAIN?!

Friday, I'll be in school having CCA during CHRISTMAS EVE !

Saturday, GRANDMA house for CELEBRATION !

This christmas is so not the same as last year's anymore.

No more party-ing at home.

I feel so weird?

HAHA. Anyway, tomorrow will be a RESTTTT day for ME !

我们不可能和以前一样了。该放弃时，还是要放弃的。

Some things, that are neglected.

2010-12-19T19:55:00.003+08:00

THIS POST IS SO DEDICATED TO EUNICE-E, REBECCA TEN AND CHAN YINXUEN ^^ Alot of things changed during the holidays. Some things that I cannot control. I've been quite tired this few days. Sleeping late, Waking early. Some things I cannot control as I want Or like. HAHA! Anyways, School's restarting, Christmas is coming ! New Year's coming ! O levels' coming ! This things are so tiring. Suddenly, I hated what I'm doing. I'm like super neglecting on friendships. I didn't want that to happen. But I cannot control anything. Somethings, just happen as it wishes. And I'm super tired. Mentally. If time could rewind back, I hope I can balance, Friendship, Work, CCA. I've been neglecting all the stuffs around me now. And i felt like i'm losing alot of things. Its time to slow down my pace, And take a good look at the surroundings.